Well.I wouldn't want to sound so emo and all but I really need to pacify my hurting heart by writing down what my agonistic mind feels. (hehe..ok, ako na madrama).
Have you ever felt like you have to choose? Like, choosing to stay on your comfort zone and just play spoiled brat, or leaving all the comforts and be independent and just grow up and mature on your own. Like, ok I am now old enough to spend my entire life making decisions for myself, I can stand on my own two feet now, I don't need my parents to spoil me with all the riches in the world just to be contented. I can now take care of myself, I can sustain my everyday living with my work!
But no. Why?
First and foremost, yes I have a job, but I admit, my income is not enough to rent a house.
Secondly, I need someone else to cook for me, Of course I can cook! (puro pa-fry-fry nga lang), I wouldn't want to eat fried hotdogs, fried sausages, fried eggs and all the fried food everyday! (baka naman manghina na ako sa sobrang nutritions na nakukuha ng katawan ko sa mga prito).
Third, I have to admit the fact that I can't really live without someone, kasi I'm scared being alone. I don't know, its not the ghosts and stuffs, its just the feeling of being alone..
Ok, I know eventually I have to face that fear. I have to learn how to be independent enough to live on my own. I have to have strong backbones enough to stand alone. Not because I need to prove the people around me something, its just another phase in an adult's life where you have to let go of all the comforts and enjoy the fact that you CAN be alone, without anyone to help you manage your expenses and all.
Ang sarap siguro ng feeling kapag alam mong lahat ng kinakain, binabayarang bills and tinitirhang bahay mo e matatawag mong sa'yo..as in, bunga ng pinaghirapan mo at hindi bunga ng paghihirap ng mga magulang mo..
:D
majestic places + blastful events + yummy goodies = wonderful life
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