These gave me shivers, haha! (ok, i WAS a poet)

I was scrolling down my sent items on my yahoo mail, when I bumped on these pieces I did when I was in my younger years. These three were the ones that gave me the best goosebumps. hahahahah!!

Defying doom with Vanity

Mhaan Asico

Like a leaf that fell from a tree..

That’s how our life’s supposed to be!

Apart from what you call your root..

In time, you have to stand your own foot.

A star twnklin’ with all its sparks

This life must be out of the dark.,

Shining through the midst of madness..

Where you feel suffering’s caress.

Water flowing..it gives life..,

Like life that flows yet cuts as knife.

Bewildering mind’s thoughts and wisdom..

Yet nestle’s human martyrdom.

Accepting fate as how it is..,

Facing one’s battle with bliss!

Continuing fighting against destiny..,

Defying doom with vanity!!!

~0~

A sweet torment maybe is God’s gift.

Never had these feelings lift.

Life’s misery I felt..most of it and all..,

Still I have to stand tall!

I walked through the edge of sorrows

Wonderin’ how this pain grows.

I’ve been at the peak of sadness..,

Yet I have to get out of my own madness!!

I traveled long…far from severe aching.

But I came realizing I wasn’t really moving!

I run towards what is not hurting.

Still it leads me near my ending!

~0~

I grief so much knowing truths

Truths that are necessary to be told.,.,

I anger a lot uncovering lies..,

Lies that should earlier be revealed!

The anguish I feel with things.,

Stuffs need not to be told but did!!

The agony I feel with people.,

Those persons who criticize my being.

These feelings that can never subside,

The suffering that had long been endured..

The pain sucks my whole persona.,

It hurts so much it reached my soul!

No one knows I was bleeding deep.,

No one sees how broken my heart is.,

No one noticed I was dying inside.,

Never did they realize this side of mine!

No one sees my anger…

Nobody hears my screams….

No one feels my pain…

Not everybody can feel these aches!!!

Now, was I on my right mind when I did these?? Nyehehehe, so, as a teenager, I was an emo? (grabey, di ko makeri bum bum ang mga pinagsasasabi ko ditech!).  I can't imagine how I was hurt during those years..parang end of the world na pala, feeling ko konti nalang, suicidal na ako. hahahaha!

On the second thought, I never imagined I'll come up with something which will make the reader feel my aches. Nakakatuwang basahin. Actually, there are loads of poems pa on my yahoo account pero, hiya ko nalang ishare yung iba pa!

Mas maangas si "Habagat" kaysa kay "Gener"

Share ko lang sana ang series of misfortunes ko noong Lunes ng gabi. Matapos ang office hours, diretso na sana akong uuwi ng bahay, well diretso naman talaga akong umuwi, nang biglaang bumuhos ang pagka-lakas-lakas na ulan. Walang choice kundi ang lumusong makauwi lang. Nang makarating ako sa terminal ng FX sa may G. Araneta, lalo pang lumakas ang buhos, walang choice, sa kagustuhan kong makauwi at makapagpahinga, pumila nalang ako sa  sakayan, kahit pa walang bubungan doon, at payong at jacket ko lang ung panlaban ko sa lakas ng ulan at hangin. Syempre, basang basa ako. Makalipas ang higit isang oras (oo, ganun ako katyagang naghintay), nang marealize kong wala ng pag-asa na may dumating pang FX na byahe mula Quezon Ave. hanggang 5th Ave., umalis nalang ako sa kinatatayuan ko at nagdesisyong kumain muna saglit sa isang fast food. Sinarado na rin yung kalye sa G. Araneta patungong 5th Ave., mataas na raw kasi yung baha dun sa may tulay e.(Oo nga pala, nalimutan kong sabihing limang buwan na ang tyan ko kaya naman maya't maya e gutom ako).

Nang makakain na ako, nag isip ako ng alternate route makauwi lang sa Caloocan South, sa Maypajo, sa may Dagat-dagatan. Naisip ko, magdi-dyip na lamang ako hanggang Sm North, and from there, baka sakaling may masakyang bus pa-UE Letre, sa Sangandaan na lamang ako daraan. Makalipas ang ilang minuto, nakarating na ang dyip na sinasakyan ko sa Sm North. Akala ko may chance pa na maka-uwi ako ng matiwasay. pagkatawid ko ng overpass, nakita ko yung grabeng trapik sa EDSA patungong Monumento. Lalo akong nanlumo nang pagkarating ng bus terminal sa may mall e nag uumpukan na ang mga taong sasakay ng bus, (stranded din dahil sa lakas ng ulan). Gustuhin ko mang makipag tulakan at makipagunahan sa kanilang makasakay ng bus, wag nalang, sana kung hindi ako jontis, at saka, matrapik din naman ang EDSA.

Kaya naman, naisipan kong lakarin na lamang mula sa SM, hanggang Munoz, (hindi ito ang unang pagkakataong ginawa ko ito, una nung wala ring masakyan nung may event ung mga INC) nagbakasakali akong bukas pa ang LRT, dun na lamang ako sasakay pa-5th ave. Ang hirap pala, hehe, lalo na kapag may dinadala ka, doble pagod. Kinausap ko nalang si bebi, sabi ko, chill lang sya. haha.

Pagkarating ko ng Munoz, nagpasalamat ako sa Diyos at bukas pa ang LRT! Agad-agad, sumakay na ako. Pagkarating ko ng 5th Ave.. bumulaga sa akin ang baha, (hanggang sa may gitna ng binti lang naman kaya keri pa). Ang nakakagulat pa, ang daming tricycle, pero hindi sila bumabyahe, hanggang baywang na raw kasi ang tubig sa may riles sa C3. Sa loob-loob ko, 'WOW! so papaano nga ule kami makakauwi??'.

Since pursigido ako makauwi, di ko inalintana ang ulan, hangin at pagod na mga binti at likod dahil sa matagal ko ng paglalakad. Naglakad ako ulit mula 5th Ave. hanggang C3, masaya naman, andami kong kasabay na gusto na rin makauwi. Nang makarating ako sa may C3, ginulat ako ng mga malalaking trailer at container truck na tila nakaparada na lamang sa daan dahil sa trapik. Naglakad pa rin ako hanggang sa may riles, baka nga naman kaya ko lusungin yung baha hanggang sa may Ambassador (kabilang kanto). Nang makita ko kung gaano kalalim, inisip ko, 'ah, hindi ko nga toh kaya mag isa', kaya tinext ko nalang ang aking mister upang sunduin ako. Wala rin naman syang magagawa, pero atleast may kasabay at guide ako sa paglusong sa baha! Hehehe.. Nakakatuwa nga yung mga residente e, kasi concern sila sa mga taong di makatawid, may mga trak pa na nag o-offer ng libreng sakay hanggang sa kabilang kanto para hindi na mabasa mga taong stranded. Eto ang mangilan-ngilang litrato na nakuha ko (pagpasensyahan nyona at lowtech ang dala kong telepono):

ayun oh! libreng sakay!!

(pagpasensyahan nyo na, sabi ko naman, malabo..hehe)

After 15minutes, dumating na ung Knight in shining armour ko, (buti naka-Havaianas sya, hindi nasira sa paglusong sa baha, haha). Sabay naming nilusong ang maalon at maruming baha, holding hands pa! In all fairness, nakakaenjoy naman, iniisip ko lang talaga yung bata sa tummy ko.

Kineri naman namin, mula sa may riles hanggang sa may petron c3, nilakad namin, nilusong ang baha at ulan. Akala ko, doon na natatapos pero pagdating ng terminal ng pedicab, wow! Walang bumabyahe, antaas na raw kasi ng tubig e. Mabuti at may nakita kaming ka-isa-isang pedicab na redi suungin ang malalim na baha maihatid lamang kami sa bahay

 Pakarating ng bahay, naligo agad kami at nilubog mga paa namin sa mainit na tubig habang umiinom ng mainit na kape at tsokolate.

Salamat na lamang sa Diyos, kahit gaano ako nahirapang umuwi e, ligtas kami ng aking bebi.
:D

They ask, 'Why him??', I answer, 'Why not??'

Let me tell you about this guy. He's not perfect, he's a typical happy-go-lucky person, he loves to laugh and throw jokes, he hates walking with me in the mall (the very reason I can't buy anything when he's with me). He has short patience, he loves to swim, he likes going to new places (one thing we have in common).

Baguio 2008

We had lots and loads of differences. He is my best friend though at times, my worst enemy. He applauds my talents though he usually criticize my beliefs. He's my one true partner in crime, though I admit he's my trip-wrecker.

Tagaytay 2010

He's the one person who makes me laugh and cry at the same time. He loves to make me laugh AND he loves to make me his laughing-stock whenever he's bored.

bus going to Baguio 2008

We had thousands of pictures together, but only a few were ok (he normally doesn't smile on photos). We had visited many places, tried new things and foods but we don't have lots of memories of it (he hates giving me photo opportunities! such a KJ). 

Nagsasa, Zambales 2011

We're not romantic, we're not sweet! (atleast not in public!), We don't show off, we don't need to show everybody who sees us we lurve each other. We don't need millions of pictures to show and prove them we're happy.

Rob Galle (Ghost Rider 2 premiere night) 2012

He influenced me on lots of things (like on driving, music, drums, movies, etc.) . He taught me how to be wise and strong. He guides me through everything. He's there whenever I'm down, he entertains me whenever I cry. Because of his optimistic point of view, I tend not to worry about things. With him, I realized how simple life can be, away from my comfort zone and without all the luxury.

Max's Sm North 2011

He never gave me flowers, he gives me chocolates. He doesn't always treat me to fancy restaurants, he cooks for me. He doesn't even tell me he loves me, he misses me or he cares for me, he makes me feel it.

Riverbanks, Marikina 2009

Now that we're moving on to the next chapter of our story, I can't feel anything but bliss. I admit..he's not my dream guy, but he eventually became my ideal man. Now, if anyone else ask me 'Why him?', I'll sarcastically answer, 'Why not??'.

all throughout the years

Captivated by Boholandia (Panglao Island Tour and Alona Beach)

The plan the next day was to wake up at 5:a.m. for our island hopping. Sadly, the boatman texted us that it wouldn't be possible since the sea waves aren't good and its not advisable for tourists to go island hopping. So, we all decided to have our Panglao City Tour for our second day. We don't really have any contacts in Panglao, but because of Ate Marilyn and Mich's wit and their so called 'malakas na diskarte', they managed to find Kuya Vir (tryke driver/owner) who then served as our service/guide for our tour in Panglao.

We left the resort pass 9:00 a.m. for our first stop which is Panglao Church. Bohol is known to have a number of old churches dating back to Spanish colonization. And, this is one of the most popular old churches in the island

Friends Forever..hahaha

Panglao Church

The Aisle

Church's ceiling murals

We did a little photo op and said a little prayer inside and off we went to the next itinerary which is the Hinagdanan Cave located at Dauis, Panglao Island. Hinagdanan Cave is cave underneath which will fascinate you with natural light from the outside and with its rock formations.

from the left: Mich, Kim, author, Yen, Ate Marilyn

the steep way underneath 

posing inside the magnificent cave

with the sharp stalactites and bright lights as ze background

according to kuya funny guide, pwede raw lumangoy dyan, di lang keri malalim e..haha

the facade

The cave actually reminds me of the Underground River in Palawan. Why? I don't know. Maybe because of the ambience inside.. a wonderful work of nature.

Many souvenir shops surround the vicinity of Hinagdanan Cave. I can say that they also sell cheap finds. Plus, there are lots of stalls to choose from. I bought some of my 'pasalubongs' here.

After contenting ourselves buying things, Kuya Vir drove us to Dauis Church. Another old church resting on the beautiful island of Bohol. Alas, it wasn't open that time. 

The side of Dauis Church

pasensya at gutom na!

After we had enough of the photography, we headed to Bohol Bee Farm to have our scrumptious dine. We ordered organic vegetables, Red Rice, Seafood Platter and Chicken. They serve bread with pesto, honey and mango spread as appetizer. We also ordered their unique ice creams, malunggay and spicy ginger flavors for dessert. The first one is good, we didn't enjoy the other one. (for me, hindi bagay maging ice cream ang ginger..haha, not a fan of spicy foods here..)

foodies which left us with a burp

trying bee farm's honey spread

dining with Kuya Vir

Bohol Bee farm was our last itinerary for our Panglao Island tour. We went back home after lunch and rested a bit. Then we all put on our swimwears and flew to Alona Beach. It was again, a bit frustrating because we didn't have the chance to take a dip on the beach due to the bad weather. What we did? Of course, pictorial by the shore!

ashar lang ang mga lumot mga teh

mala-Temptation Island lang naman ang peg 

hindi ko rin sure ano gusto namin palabasin ditech

its Kim, Yen, Mich, Me, and Marilyn

lakas makamowdel ng mga pose!

And, after getting tired of posing for the 'pictorial', we all decided to go back to the resort. We walked from the beach to Alonaland, it was I think a 10-minute walk.

Since we're so desperate to get wet, we (Mich, Kim, I) dipped on Alonaland's pool that night. Underwater pictorials were made and we had fun posing under. (Ewan, hindi ako makakuha ng magandang kuha underwater! haha!!)

ewan ko ba at ang galing-galing ni Kim magpopo-pose underwater!

so far, eto lang ang mejo ok ako..haha

We stayed in the pool for almost an hour. After that, we bathe and went to sleep.

The second day, though not as I expected (nag assume ako sa island hopping!) was all fun and experiencing new things. Kumbaga, sinulit namin ang buong araw, touring Panglao and visiting Alona Beach.

"Disclaimer: Photos are from friends, Kim Buenafe and Yen Malamig"