These gave me shivers, haha! (ok, i WAS a poet)

I was scrolling down my sent items on my yahoo mail, when I bumped on these pieces I did when I was in my younger years. These three were the ones that gave me the best goosebumps. hahahahah!!

Defying doom with Vanity

Mhaan Asico

Like a leaf that fell from a tree..

That’s how our life’s supposed to be!

Apart from what you call your root..

In time, you have to stand your own foot.

A star twnklin’ with all its sparks

This life must be out of the dark.,

Shining through the midst of madness..

Where you feel suffering’s caress.

Water flowing..it gives life..,

Like life that flows yet cuts as knife.

Bewildering mind’s thoughts and wisdom..

Yet nestle’s human martyrdom.

Accepting fate as how it is..,

Facing one’s battle with bliss!

Continuing fighting against destiny..,

Defying doom with vanity!!!

~0~

A sweet torment maybe is God’s gift.

Never had these feelings lift.

Life’s misery I felt..most of it and all..,

Still I have to stand tall!

I walked through the edge of sorrows

Wonderin’ how this pain grows.

I’ve been at the peak of sadness..,

Yet I have to get out of my own madness!!

I traveled long…far from severe aching.

But I came realizing I wasn’t really moving!

I run towards what is not hurting.

Still it leads me near my ending!

~0~

I grief so much knowing truths

Truths that are necessary to be told.,.,

I anger a lot uncovering lies..,

Lies that should earlier be revealed!

The anguish I feel with things.,

Stuffs need not to be told but did!!

The agony I feel with people.,

Those persons who criticize my being.

These feelings that can never subside,

The suffering that had long been endured..

The pain sucks my whole persona.,

It hurts so much it reached my soul!

No one knows I was bleeding deep.,

No one sees how broken my heart is.,

No one noticed I was dying inside.,

Never did they realize this side of mine!

No one sees my anger…

Nobody hears my screams….

No one feels my pain…

Not everybody can feel these aches!!!

Now, was I on my right mind when I did these?? Nyehehehe, so, as a teenager, I was an emo? (grabey, di ko makeri bum bum ang mga pinagsasasabi ko ditech!).  I can't imagine how I was hurt during those years..parang end of the world na pala, feeling ko konti nalang, suicidal na ako. hahahaha!

On the second thought, I never imagined I'll come up with something which will make the reader feel my aches. Nakakatuwang basahin. Actually, there are loads of poems pa on my yahoo account pero, hiya ko nalang ishare yung iba pa!